Patience isn’t something that comes naturally to me, but I have come to understand how valuable it is.
There are some things that we can’t fully grasp in a day or a week or even a month. Sometimes it might even take years to understand why you had to wait.
What you saw then was just a tip of the iceberg, and if it’s been raining for as long as you can remember you might think that that’s all there is without knowing that the sun is just about to shine.
What you saw as an opportunity you missed then could turn out to be something that could have destroyed you later on.
When all walls were closing in on you and you saw no way out and you were ready to give up, but you waited, a way opened and brought with it everything you desired in life.
But if you hadn’t waited, you wouldn’t have known what lied ahead, you would have ended your story prematurely by settling for a coma instead of waiting for the period.
One thing about patience is that there is no shortcut to it, so just take a step at a time, Live in the moment. One day, it might not be tomorrow or next month but one day you’ll be very grateful to have waited for as long as you did.
Isaiah 60:22 When The Time Is Right I,The Lord Will Make It Happen.
Ever wondered when will it be your turn to get what you want?
Well you’re not the only one.
Sometimes it feels like that’s all I know. I’m either a little too early or a little too late.
Everything I’m chasing after seems to be flying while I’m stuck on the ground.
It’s as if I’m surrounded by ten million different colors but none matching mine.
I watch people get what they want and I can’t help but wonder, what’s the trick? Because it’s a concept I can’t seem to master.
I know we don’t always get what we want but it’s different when you get used to not getting what you want. It’s so easy to forget what you even want in the first place. You could be tempted to think that it’s not that important after all. And without even knowing it, your life becomes all about what everyone wants and never about what you actually want. It’s a dangerous path to find yourself in, but it’s a very common phenomenon.
Ever found yourself trying to make a decision and you’re considering every party involved except one..which is “you”? You factor out how everyone will be affected by the outcome but forget to include yourself?
This got me thinking about knowing when to say Yes and when to say No. I came to a realization that both “Yes” and “No” carry the same weight. They are equal answers. I don’t know if it’s just me but when it comes to saying Yes, everybody seems to be all cool about it…but when I say “No” I usually get the urge to give a reason or an excuse or some kind of an explanation to make it feel like a satisfying answer.
In a world where everyone is different from the other,You would expect people to be a bit more comfortable with hearing “No” as an answer. Yes we have similarities, but you can agree with me that if we’re being honest we all have different paths,we have different dreams and like the sun there’s only one of us in the entire universe. If that’s not reason enough to normalise our differences I don’t know what is. Perhaps it’s because everybody wants everybody to be like them, think like them, even act like them which is not fair…it’s like expecting milk from a chicken or eggs from a cow?
If we’re ever gonna live our lives following our hearts and our own paths we need to learn and get used to hearing “No” and most importantly saying ” No” and meaning it while we’re at it.
We shouldn’t feel guilty for saying “No” and if I’m not wrong most of the times, the answer is “No” when we remember to include ourselves in the brackets. When we remember to ask ourselves if that’s what we really want or are we just getting along with it to make everybody happy.
In conclusion I’d like to remind anyone who can relate with what am saying is that; When you offer love and you should, don’t forget to have some left for you. You’re just as important as the people you care about. Your feelings matter, your ideas are valid and your dreams deserve a chance to be pursued. Just as you listen, you deserve to be heard and understood. You don’t always have to be the last I the list, sometimes let it be about you, do what makes you smile more even if that means making somebody else a little uncomfortable. If they really care about you as you do them, then doing what makes you happy shouldn’t cause a fuss at all.
Last but not the least is; If you’re waiting for someone to stand up for you, prepare to be waiting forever…no one will and you know what? it’s not their fault because they probably don’t know what’s in your mind and heart. No one knows you like you know yourself, so if you can’t stand up for what you believe in, don’t you think it’s kind of unrealistic and unfair to expect someone else to do for you what you can’t do for yourself? I believe that only God can do that, and He would also require you to be proactive about your life because no matter how much He loves you, as Pastor Steven Furtick would put it, “He can’t “possess the promised land for you” . Some things, only you can do, and you have all it takes..just be true to who you’re and believe in yourself to make your dreams come true.
Revelation 12:10 Then I heard a loud voice in heaven say: “Now have come the salvation and the power and the kingdom of our God, and the authority of his Messiah. For the accuser of our brothers and sisters, who accuses them before our God day and night, has been hurled down.
“At the cross the work was finished. How many times do we often forget that? Why do we tend to forget what matters the most? Maybe that’s what the enemy wants us to do. To forget that we are the privileged ones, we’re the children of the promise, we are loved beyond measure, that we are under grace and not law..that what Christ paid for us at the cross wasn’t the half price..he didn’t say there’s anything else left for us to be owed. No! With His own life and blood , He ransomed us from sin..He said it is finished! To the devil this is a lost battle and he knows it, , so what he does is to make us forget that we’re victors not victims. He has no power or authority over us but if he can make us forget about the power and authority bestowed upon us by our beloved saviour, then he can appear to be winning…he thrives on that, false hope..his fate is already set.
So my brothers and sisters in Christ I’m here today to remind you that if you have accepted the salvation of Christ, you get so much more than forgiveness of sins, You get Power, a lot of it (the same power that resurrected Christ from the dead). You get Authority to triumph over serpent and scorpion..(the devil and all his demons) When we hear of snakes and scorpions we might think just about the physical, the safety of our flesh but we all know that this is not a battle of flesh and blood..God is more concerned about our souls..so the power and authority we were given is over the enemy and his agents, over the kingdom of darkness.
In times of law, the enemy had power over us because being the accuser of brethren in an era where sin had power because of law…he was surely having a good time. There was no hope for people during that time..the law was perfect, the problem is that people aren’t perfect.. They are bound to fall short once in a while..but law being perfect expected perfect for it to work..it could only work for perfect people else it was enslaving them and they had no power over it. Once broken law demanded blood for atonement is sins without which resulted to death. It must have been hard to live like that. Law made it so much easier for satan to accuse people, to torment them for their shortcomings and make them feel guilty even for things they has no control over, law understood no weaknesses, it knew no mercy, , , you either do or die.
But God being a loving Father, saw it not fit for man to keep living like that. Being so merciful and compassionate He decided to redeem us and give us new era of freedom.He decided to bring down His Kingdom here on earth. He’s perfect and that’s why law was perfect..it was intended to bring righteousness upon us so as to bring us closer to our make who desired a relationship with us…but having been tried and failed law had to go. So our Father took it upon Himself to do what we were unable to do..He sent His son (God Himself in flesh) to come and fulfill the law..unless the law was fulfilled a new era would not have been introduced because every word that comes forth from the mouth of God shall not return to Him void, it must fulfill it’s purpose and so Jesus fulfilled the law as God had intended it to be fulfilled. He did so much more than just fulfill the law, , He introduced something so much better than law through which man shall be saved and be made righteous, He gave freely what no human deserved.. He brought forth a new era of grace and gave himself up as a sacrifice for the new covenant which we’re now under, the covenant which was once promised to Abraham to be fulfilled through his seed and Jesus is the seed.
Now sin has no power and death has no sting. In that instant even the little power that the enemy thought he had was taken away from him. Because what will he accuse us of then is sin has been rendered powerless over us because of grace which was poured in abundance upon the world. If death was defeated what then will he threaten us with? It was a great loss for the enemy on that day, He was wounded in a way he can never recover. The people that he initially tormented were now freed, no longer slaves and if that wasn’t enough threat for him..they were given power and authority over him. The thought of that must have driven him crazy..instantly when he least expected it, , there at the cross as he laughed in mockery thinking that God had failed to do what he had promised..there at the cross filled with pride watching the son of man anguished in pain..he thought he had pinned him there, he thought he had won…not until the curtains were torn apart and the glory of God was revealed for the whole world to see…If there was a set up, satan just set himself up. In the blink of an eye everything had changed and man would never be same again..souls were freed from the realm of darkness and the kingdom of darkness was under attack they weren’t prepared for in any way or form. They were robbed all the power and authority and that power was given back to men..see that power and authority was once ours given unto us by God at the garden of eden but we give it up due to sin..but God had yet again restored to us what was rightfully ours.
What a victory! But sometimes I feel like we just don’t fully grasps the concept of what transpired on that day , because if we did we would never stop singing songs of praises to our God for what He did for us. If we did, we wouldn’t be walking around as if we have the weight of the whole world on our shoulders, we wouldn’t be acting as if we’re still slaves. We wouldn’t let the enemy mess with our power and authority which God worked so hard for us to attain.
Let’s rise brethrens. We have power and dominion. The only power that satan has is the one we give him through our ignorance and fear..else he stands defeated. We are here to celebrate the victory of cross by living in that freedom given unto us. Let’s refuse to be slaves, let’s refuse to fear what has no power or authority over us. Satan might be having some power but we have the authority of Christ..and power without authority is useless..authority is capable of undermining power of any form. Let’s therefore put on that authority and walk as kings and queens as we are without any fear. Let’s not be intimidated by empty threats of the enemy, rather let’s wages a war against Him with bravery and confidence, maybe then he will be reminded whom we belong to.(The lion of the tribe of Judah)
If nobody told you this today, or in case you’ve forgotten and needs a reminder, in case waves of doubts have been weighing you down. I’m here to remind you that “You’re enough” as simple as that. So whatever it is that is happening in your life, you need to first believe in yourself. “As long as there is breath in your lungs, You have the power to change yourself for better and influence beings around you to do the same” Let’s make this life count, even if it’s not for anybody else then at least for ourselves and those who love us. We’ve the opportunity to experience life, and so we should, even if it’s just in the simplest ways. Make every moment count and smile as much as you can, it’s good for your health.
Don’t listen to the world, It keeps telling you that you need a little bit of this and a little bit of that to be enough. That’s a lie..the only thing you need to be enough is to “BELIEVE” that You’re actually enough just as you’re. To be true to yourself and to love yourself wholly. Yes I understand that sometimes you make silly mistakes even after knowing better, still be kind, be gentle with yourself. Being cruel and mean will do you no good..it will only make you worse. The truth is, it doesn’t matter how much people around you are kind to you, if you aren’t kind to yourself, you will not be able to feel that love in your heart and you will have no one but yourself to blame for that.
The only way to making yourself better is by believing that you have the potential and the willingness to be better, putting in the effort to be better, and being patient with yourself as much as need be because trust me in as much as growth sounds appealing, the path towards it isn’t usually a walk in the park, so if you desire to make it to the other side you need to prepare for some storms and some mountains to climb, you need to be ready to get up as many times because the falls might be uncountable and the bruises unbearable, you need enough courage to pat yourself on the back and wipe your tears as you pick yourself up from the ground for what it could feel like a millionth time. Last but not the least, you must be resilient and don’t give up on yourself no matter how hard it gets, move with sheer tenacity and push away the thoughts of despair as soon as they pop up, because they will, more often than you think, but don’t give them light of day because if everything you’re working so hard to achieve is based on your ability to believe in yourself, then a single doubt if entertained can bring you to ruin real quick.
You’re enough, so act like you believe so! Blessings pals. May the light of God light your paths forever!
St. John 13:4 so he got up from the meal, took off his outer clothing, and wrapped a towel around his waist.
I wonder how many times Jesus had to stop the world to tend to the needs of His dear children .How many times He had to stop and say “hold on a little, this can wait..my babies need me”. How many times He had to think of us and push His own needs aside. Is it the mountains that He wouldn’t move? Is it the rivers that He wouldn’t part? Or is it crashing waves He wouldn’t still? I’m convinced that He would stop the sun if He had to….the one who left the perfect Heaven to come to a miserable world, would do anything to save His own. The Great shepherd would tear down the lions, the bears and the wolves in split second to rescue His sheep.
He got up from the meal…He couldn’t wait to finish eating first. He didn’t say ” “I’m hungry, let me eat first then I’ll wash their feet afterwards” How selfless is that?
Isn’t He the same Jesus, the son of God, the prince of Heaven?. In Heaven angels bowed before Him and worshipped Him in reverence. In Heaven He was surrounded by the glory of His Father. But what did He do when the father sent Him..did He say “I can’t leave all this glory and go down there to be a nobody whom people hate, persecute, reject and ends up killing in the most humiliating way possible!” No! He left all that glory behind and accepted to step into earth, not as the King He is, but as a little, vulnerable human baby..not of the King or of a very wealthy, noble person in the society but of a carpenter and an unpopular little virgin girl…and if that’s not enough humility…the first place that the Son of the Maker of Heaven and earth lied was in manger. Do you get the point really? He planned all this..It didn’t just happen to Him..it’s not the kind of things we say ” He didn’t have a choice…No no no! He’s the Alpha and Omega..He choose to come to earth in the most humble way possible. In that way, He could easily relate to the humans He had come to save. He thought of us first, everything He did was so that He can save us. he didn’t care about His comfort on earth but of the lost souls that needed to be found.
The list goes on and on about how Jesus truly showed His love for us. He judged no one even though He was Holy and blameless. He only loved, then loved some more and loved again and again..and that wasn’t because the people He had sacrificed so much for..welcomed Him on earth with hugs and kisses..no!..those brats couldn’t wait to kill Him…but He still loved them because the only kind of love He knew was the unconditional love. They thought they were killing Him not knowing that they had no power or authority to do so…and that if He hadn’t given up that power and authority and laid down His life..they couldn’t have gotten anywhere near Him leave alone touch Him. If Elijah summoned fire from Heaven to consume those who pursued Him..How much more would the Son of God have punished them? But because Jesus came down for this very reason…so that He can die for our sins..the greatest form of love possible..for one to lay down His life for another person.. and in this case He didn’t die for just one person, not even for just those who loved Him, no! Our Jesus went to the cross to die for everybody, those who were there in those days and everybody who will ever step their feet on earth. Everybody! All our sins were wiped away and we were given a clean slate.
Our freedom is in Him who paid the price, and so He calls us to believe in Him so that we can live in that freedom, else, apart from Him we will be held captive by the same sins He defeated at the Cross..but with Him, our freedom is eternal..sin has no power and death had no sting! Grace and abundant grace is our portion forever and ever Amen!
Jesus, thank you for the Cross. Thank you for the miracle of grace. You took my sins and shame And gave me your righteousness.
My heart is convinced, That I’ll never find this kind of love anywhere else, Who could die for someone like me? But you did, you gave up everything. You surrendered your authority, You submitted your power, You bowed your head and said “it is finished!” And in that moment my soul was freed. In that moment the one who was called a slave became an heir of the Kingdom. In that moment all my infirmities broke loose and all the dry bones came to life.
My “thank you” is the least I can do. There’s nothing I can do to repay you, Still you don’t look at me like I owe you anything. Even when I prove myself undeserving of your love. You still look at me the same, With so much love in your eyes. You still hold me the same, With so much warmth in your embrace. This kind of love no words can describe.
I have an image of you at the cross in my mind, The place I run to at my lowest point, I sit there at the foot of the cross, And look up to you. There I’m reminded of the price you paid, of the love I can’t ignore and of the purpose I can’t forsake. I find strength to get back up and keep going no matter how hard life could get. All because of the power of the cross. From ages ago, that power still manifests in mighty ways in the lives of Your sons and daughters.
Thank you for carrying the cross that I was supposed to carry. Thank you for the shame you took from me. Thank you for the sicknesses you paid by your stripes. Thank you for the crown of thorns to make me royalty like you. Thank you for your blood that paid the price for my soul. Thank you for dying that I might live. Thank you for resurrecting that I might resurrect too because you defeated death.
You found me when I was lost You turned my darkness into light, I was hopeless but you gave me hope, My days were numbered but you gave me eternity, I had no place to call home, but you became a home to me. My heart finds peace in knowing I have you. You’re my destination, you’re my purpose. When you opened my eyes to your light, my search for gold ended, You’re my treasure. My life found meaning when you found me.
Jesus, Thank you for the Cross and resurrection. Thank you for grace. My life is forever transformed!
“The apple of His eye” You can mess with anything but if you want to see fire fall down from the sky try messing with what one treasures the most.
They beat Him up, they spitted on Him, they cursed Him, the said He was demon possessed, they put a crown of thorn on Him, they striped Him and hang Him on the cross…and in all these instances He never raised a finger or His voice. He somehow had patience for all that, He could hold Himself together for it all and persevere the pain inflicted on His flesh.
But what He just couldn’t stand was to see people misuse the house of His father! It’s to see people not understand the purpose that it served! Jesus had encountered so many sins in His lifetime…demon possessed, alduterous, liars , hypocrites…but the only time that He “lost His cool” the only time He was enraged in a way that He had to take matters into His own hands, was when they messed up with the house on which He was the foundation!
He didn’t care how many they were, He didn’t care how much wealth they had, all that didn’t matter to Him…He just couldn’t understand how these people had the guts to come to Him fathers house to conduct their dirty businesses! Did they seriously have nowhere else to do that! He didn’t care if they would think that He was crazy..He just had to put an end to what was going on and bring back order to His Father’s house.
I get the feeling that if He came down today, , some would be getting some very good beatings because somehow we often forget that the house of God is His treasure..we forget that the house of God isn’t a place for any other business but for prayers and fellowship with God. All other personal agendas are to be left at the gate. But some treat prayers and worship as “AoBs”.
We need to take a step back and rethink our focus. Are we still in alignment with God’s will or did we along the way shift our focus to our own will? We know God as the merciful God but we often forget that He is also the “consuming fire” and trust me we don’t want that fire turned against us..we are better of being on His good side.
Lastly, the physical church isn’t the only place we should step with great care…our very bodies are the temple of the Holy spirit, We should keep them holy, in everything we do pleasing the Lord.
St. John 2:14 In the temple courts he found people selling cattle, sheep and doves, and others sitting at tables exchanging money. St. John 2:15 So he made a whip out of cords, and drove all from the temple courts, both sheep and cattle; he scattered the coins of the money changers and overturned their tables. St. John 2:16 To those who sold doves he said, “Get these out of here! Stop turning my Father’s house into a market!” St. John 2:17 His disciples remembered that it is written: “Zeal for your house will consume me.”
The best thing to ever happen to me is to be loved unconditionally by the maker of the universe.There’s nothing special that I did, He did it all for me.I did not need any silver or gold…just me and my empty hands.
And I can walk like I own the world, with my head held high and a crazy kind of confidence… All because of this love that I don’t deserve yet is lavished on me beyond measure.
And before you go thinking that I’m all in my head or in a fantasy world, let me stop you at that. I know the world, hell I’ve been there,,, I still am, but now I see it from a different perspective because I know something I didn’t know before.
Now looking back I can see how every force that came towards me had one simple purpose…to make me forget who I am or rather whose I am, to make me feel small, replaceable and ordinary…like I am here to just exist and then die, because no matter what you do, we all die huh! Every force made me feel as if I didn’t matter that much, as if I wasn’t loved that much. Even I, didn’t like the girl in the mirror that much. What a pity! What a waste of love.
Now I’m fully awake, now I know why my self-worth was and still is a threat to the enemy…because no matter how much you love someone, no matter how many times to tell them you do love them, no matter what you do to prove your love to them, , if they aren’t convinced in their hearts, if they don’t believe you…It doesn’t really matter, even if you would catch a bullet for them..that love would be all for nothing when it comes to bringing happiness and fulfillment in their hearts…they would still be miserable..they would still feel unworthy and unloved. It’s such a pity really!
When I look back I kinda feel bad, for all those night I slept feeling like I didn’t matter, for all those tears I shed, because the world was screaming that there’s nothing special about me, for all those words that I let break my precious heart, for letting my head hung low as if I was an orphan with no one to love me, for not loving myself enough. I feel bad for all the wasted time and energy spent trying to pursue peace and happiness in all the wrong places, for believing that I needed something or someone to make me feel whole, for thinking that I was broken and needed some fixing, for trying to fit in, for not seeing the ugliness of the world caused by hate and selfishness and being oblivious of the beauty within my very own heart. For shutting my heart and trying to be tough because I was made to believe that this world is not for gentle hearts like mine, , for being ashamed of being kind because “mean” is being cool and strong while being kind is being weak and naive. I tried being everything that I wasn’t just to please the world, even if that meant betraying who I truly was…masquerading just to fit in…I almost lost my identity. But, if I did I wouldn’t be here today writing this short story, right?
If in deed I didn’t matter, if in deed I was just an ordinary being, if in deed I was who the world did everything to make me believe I was…I’m hundred percent convinced that I wouldn’t be here today, not like this. I am here today because all along, even when I didn’t know it, someone had my life in His hands, all along even when I felt unworthy, someone loved me so very much…and that same someone decided that my story had a long way to go.. So just when I was getting tired of playing pretend and acting as if everything is okay, when I was about to give up the little light that was growing dimmer day by day in my soul…just in that moment.. He took over my life..He turned my life around and all He had to do was to convince me that He loved me beyond measure, that’s all I needed to know, to be reminded of my real identity, that I’m a magical being, only one like me in world full of trillion humans, and even the very hair of my head, He cared to know their number. Damn! It’s a feeling I can never forget, Never! I had been in the dark for so long I had forgotten just how beautiful the light is, how illuminating it can be…my inside was being turned, I could almost feel a new life breaking through, my soul was free again and my eyes started looking at the world differently…like I was somewhere on a hill looking down on everything. After every lie I had been told, I knew they couldn’t fool me anymore. Truth was finally here and wisdom was holding my hand, I knew I was safe, I knew I was loved, very loved. Peace had found me, my heart was full.
So no matter how hard this world tries to push me, it will never take away my identity from me again. As long as I know who I’m and whose I am, they can never steal my peace.. And as long as I have my peace, I will stand unshaken..I will smile when they expect me to be crying and they would think I’m pretending because they don’t understand. “Peace that transcends human understanding”, He said.
Jesus loves me and He loves you too..you need to believe that or it won’t really help you. He actually cares and He wishes you all good things in the world even if the world tries to steal every gift that God sends your way. Just believe and allow Him to love you, He will love you in all the ways you didn’t think could be possible. He loves unconditionally.